special

So, I haven't had a post in a while, and that's a shame. I should really write more of my thoughts down. I've recently been dating someone who's become very special to me. I care very deeply for her and I find that the thought of losing her terrifies me. Which, in and of itself, is terrifying. I think the moment that you realize that you care more about someone else than your self makes you very vulnerable. That vulnerability is an anathema to me. I'm not used to it. I'm used to sharing my feelings, but I am not used to my happiness depending so fully on someone else being happy. It's a very strange feeling.